never good enough

While burning up some extra time, I was looking in one of my mother's drawers. I discovered a gift I gave her for her birthday at least 4 years ago. It had a note in it, signed by me. It was apologizing for the late present and for the "weird design." Well, when I made her this gift, I was obviously a new artist, but I had some great visions. I have to be honest, I'm impressed that I made this! It's very unique and definitely something I would use, if it was made a little bit better. The craftsmanship is not the best, but it was made by a beginner knitter child with scrap yarn. Anyways, seeing this and then further discussing with my dad, who is a jeweler and lives his days making masterpieces for lowly consumers not seeing the true effort and beauty behind his pieces, I had a major realization. "People will never appreciate a handmade good." They can't understand what goes behind every stitch, every strip of gold, every teensy detail. Me, as the designer and the gifter, give away a piece of myself with every item. My mom obviously did not appreciate this gift at all, as it was stuffed in the back of a drawer. Granted, it isn't really usable, but still, it breaks my heart a little bit just seeing one of my first pieces ever made pushed into a narrow space, never to be seen.

I may sound very pretentious and cocky in this short essay; I apologize if I come off that way. I'm not trying to brag, promise!

Have you ever felt unappreciated when it comes to your design talents? Share stories! Maybe they will be posted!