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never good enough

While burning up some extra time, I was looking in one of my mother's drawers. I discovered a gift I gave her for her birthday at least 4 years ago. It had a note in it, signed by me. It was apologizing for the late present and for the "weird design." Well, when I made her this gift, I was obviously a new artist, but I had some great visions. I have to be honest, I'm impressed that I made this! It's very unique and definitely something I would use, if it was made a little bit better. The craftsmanship is not the best, but it was made by a beginner knitter child with scrap yarn. Anyways, seeing this and then further discussing with my dad, who is a jeweler and lives his days making masterpieces for lowly consumers not seeing the true effort and beauty behind his pieces, I had a major realization. "People will never appreciate a handmade good." They can't understand what goes behind every stitch, every strip of gold, every teensy detail. Me, as the designer and the gifter, give away a piece of myself with every item. My mom obviously did not appreciate this gift at all, as it was stuffed in the back of a drawer. Granted, it isn't really usable, but still, it breaks my heart a little bit just seeing one of my first pieces ever made pushed into a narrow space, never to be seen.

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I may sound very pretentious and cocky in this short essay; I apologize if I come off that way. I'm not trying to brag, promise!

Have you ever felt unappreciated when it comes to your design talents? Share stories! Maybe they will be posted!

6 comments:

Joezehh said...

wow,
i wish i could knit as well as you!
i tried to make a scarf,
but i gave up when it was only big enough to make a handkercheif!

elventryst said...

When I first read your post I thought, "Awww, that's sweet that your mom saved that and with your note." I think that's how you should look at it. It is super cute, by the way!

Miranda said...

aww
that's so true, unfortunately
i think it's adorable
i'd be proud if i were you too

Trish said...

Hey. I love this girl! Awesome! :)

Wicked said...

Awww well I'll totally take and keep it (did that sound as bad as it did after I finished typing it?)

It looks beautiful to me.

Sandy said...

I am in my 60s. I practice an obscure art. When I was in my 30s I had the idea to sell my things and make a living at it. Wow, was I disappointed. People would gush over the art when it was free, but no, they did not want to pay for it. That is where a learned a valuable life lesson: Do things because you enjoy the process and love the art but don't let your worth be determined by what others think. Maybe you won't be able to make a living at it-that could be a cold hard fact. That should not keep you from making things for your own enjoyment.
sandy

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